Boobies ( . )( . )

I'm a guy. I love boobs. That's like, genetics. But why in gods name do I have to always want to see them. I have a lot of female friends and for like 95 percent of them, I'd love to see they're boobs. I don't want to have sex with them. I have no "more than friends" type feelings for them. So why o why do u always wanna see they're boobs? Its a conundrum! I love mu girlfriend's. I think they're perfect. So why?! It baffles me. Its like weird cuz I think some of my female friends are pretty/hott/beautiful etc. But I don't like, lust for them or anything. Its like I'm just aware of it you know? And another thing that bothers me is that like, I feel like I can't let them know that I think they're beautiful or whatever because that crosses some invisible line that's even a bigger line because I have a girlfriend, regardless of my intentions.
Ok, I love star wars. I do. I think its the shit once a person actually reads the books and sees how much more there is to this imaginary universe. But something that I can relate to and really cling on to in this universe is this idea of the light side and dark side of the force and the resisting of temptation. Most things selfish or aggressive would be considered dark side and most selfless and for the good of all people would be considered light side. But upon reading so many of the books and thinking in my spare time, I find that most of it comes down to intentions. (Which is how this relates to the boobs subject) Let's say some guy kills a family of people living on a farm. That's dark right? Now let's say they kill the family because they have 100 slaves in an underground bunker and its the only way to save them. Still dark? See that's where it becomes iffy. Let's say someone manipulates their friend into not going on a date with a great guy even though they're lonely, dark right? Now let's say that the lonely friend actually has dependency issues and this great guy actually has a history of being violent with girls that the lonely friend either doesn't know about or doesn't believe because they're so hopeful to be with someone. Still dark? I think not. I believe no matter what people do in life their intentions define whether it is a good or bad act, so long as they aren't manipulating this so that the ends justify the means. Like saying I want to protect my family, so I'm gonna go kill as many black people as I can because they scare me. That's retarded and obviously this person is trying to justify their actions. I think if you have to justify your actions to anyone, including yourself, they aren't just at all and you should stop deluding yourself.
This is why I don't ask my female friends to show me they're breasts, because despite my urges to see them or my intentions thereof, the ends don't justify the means. So sorry boobs, maybe someday when you're drunk and I walk in on something I shouldn't see lol. Or the other way around XD
Lol thanks for hearing me out. I'll ttyl world.